Words

Jul 10

Did you ever stop to think, about the power of your words?
Stop, even for a second, to contemplate their worth?
I have.

It amazes me to think how heavy sounds can be, even though they are weightless.
How much sentences can weigh you down and haunt you, cripple you with pain.
At the same time they can also bring such joy.

Immense pain and pure joy.
What else has the power to bring both these things, other than your words?

For a long time I have let others words control me.
I could not shake them from my mind.
Every day I got torturous reruns, leaving no room for new thoughts, new opinions.
No room for me.

I became lost in a world of words.
Obese.
Worthless.
Fat.
Ugly.
Nobody will love you.

It became that these words were all I knew.
They ruled each and every second of my day and night.
There was no break, no escape.
So they broke me.

How is it that something I can't see, touch, or smell can break me?
Am I really so weak as to be reduced to nothing by something as simple as sounds?

The words of those closest to me almost killed me, but this is not their fault.
For it is I who gave them that power.
It is I who distorted them.
It is I who turned their words into a powerful weapon against myself.

So now, I must use my own words to rebuild myself.
How I don't know.
But I will learn.
Because if someone else's words have so much power, surely my own can have more?

Next time you speak, to your external or internal world, think.
What could these words create?
Pain?
Sadness?
Joy?
Healing?

Your words have more power than you could ever imagine.

Stop.
Think.
Listen.
Be careful.

You wouldn't throw around a bomb, so don't throw around your words.